I think im having like withdrawl from life.
I just turned like old, and now i realize my life really isnt going anywhere.
Add onto that the fact that supernatural is not playing for like the next month, and it was the only show that i really looked forward to like ever.
Also (cause apparently im a stickler for pain and misery) owing to the fact that this year may possible be the last year supernatural runs makes me depressed and sad.
But dont be fooled, i mean not everything in my life revolves around supernatural, oh no, in fact there are many many more things i get to be depressed about. Such as the fact that christmas is coming and im too poor to really afford to buy the pretty things that are advertised (i totally blame the media for putting images of sugar plums in my head)
As well, school is coming to an end for a while, and then in Jan. it starts up again, but i realize that even though its really exciting for now, i realized that that i have like 3 more years (easy) for me to be in school, and well thats not such a happy though. You think after high school i would have decided not to go back to school, cause id be sick of it, but apparently once again i guess im a sucker for pain and misery.
Bring it my way! So thats why i feel like a debbie downer right now, maybe it will get better in time, and maybe it wont. I just feel like im stuck, and for sure some J2 would help brighten my day, but i have too many midterms to focus on (or procrastinate for) to not feel guilty if i want to read J2, or watch some old episodes of supernatural.
So im stuck, in a rut, like a mut whoses been cut…and i realize this is going no where so i decided to stop.
Wish i had something more insightful and pleasent to say. Maybe i will sleep on it, and magically something amazingly witty will come to me, or not. But a girls gotta dream right? RIGHT?!
Anyways, maybe all i need is like chocolate, or a cuddle buddy sometimes that makes it all better, or maybe its just Peaches withdrawl, cause i know its going to be forever till i see her again.
Although we saw New Moon together, and it was awesome! BECAUSE IT FOLLOWED THE BOOK! AND IF YOU READ THE BOOK AND THEN WATCH THE MOVIE YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT, BUT IF YOUR ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO DONT READ THE BOOK AND THEN CRITIZE THE MOVIE, YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT! NEW MOON WAS LIKE A BILLION TIMES BETTER THAN TWILIGHT!
so theres that as well, and look at that the rant made me feel better, who would have thought?! maybe now i will actually sit down and do my essay and then when im done that, i will do the other essay LOL cause my life is just that much fun…
Oh and i guess its probably important to say that i was team edward, but after watching new moon i have decided that i am team jacob and for those who dont care well i dont care that you dont care, so there. Jacob totally owned this movie, so glad they kept him, him being super buff and hot notwithstanding.
I want a unicorn to carry me to like a moonbeam or something (cause i believe somewhere i heard moonbeams are happy places, where people are like super happy and full of joy and joyness)…where can i find a unicorn at this time of the year?
~carnessie