Stalker

Hey y’all,

Im in the midst of writing my take home midterm, which is due tomorrow, i think i will make it, without having to stay up to 4am in the morning.  But i figured i would take a bit of a break, (after doing absolutly nothing as of yet) and post a poem that i wrote.  When i wrote this i had in mind what a stalker would be like, trying to get into their frame of mind, sorta creepy and obsessed.  But its also suppose to be a fun poem, not sure if i can actually combine those too, promise that this is a harmless stalker. I wouldnt endorse people actually getting hurt or anything. Here is goes.

s.t.a.l.k.e.r

Sweetly cunning i’m always here

Taking glances as you move

Attraction to you is easy and smooth

Leaving so many possibilities in my head

Kettle whistles high above your bed

Evening settles and i sit knowing

Reminder of our life unlived is showing

 

Secret whispers in the night

Typing notes that never reach you

A hard man is hard to find new

Lurking right below your eyes

Knocking at your door with lies

Ever running, i fear your kind

Rejection heavy on my mind

 

See me watching you

Take a moment look around

A good stalker won’t be found

Look left, look right

Keeping hidden in the night

Easy movements take much skill

Romantic notions stay, i look my fill

 

~carnessie

Does Anyone Remember Harry Potter?

Because i do not remember the last time that i had or heard a conversation with Harry Potter in it…the dude has lost his appeal, so sad. Although he did have a good run, i guess they are still making the new #7 movie (in two parts? i dunno) but i just dont think they have the following that they use to you know?!

I mean im sure tons of people will still go to see it, i mean i know i will and i have absolutly no interest in Harry Potter anymore, but i saw all the others, so i should see this one in theatres as well, i means its only fair right?

Well my Peaches is a HUGE fan of Harry Potter, and this is where the story was originally going LOL but i have a team that teaches little kids how to deal with conflict and we have a fundraiser coming up, and we have to dress as sports teams, so one of our members suggested we go as the Quidditch team (spelling?) which is an awesome idea, cause no one will think of that (well i think) since Harry Potter sort of died…

Well we were having this intense conversation about what colours all the teams were, and if we should be one member 

from each team or a united front, and we knew that Slytherin was green and silver and Griffindor was red and gold, but not one of us could decide exactly what the other houses colours were. And really thats a testimony to the movies and books that totally glossed over the other characters, cause no one really cares about Hufflepuff and Ravenclaw, i mean really…

I mean how could they even compare to the people who Slyther IN and the Griffin Doors…whats a Huffle Puff and a Raven Claw have to compare to such amazing teams. Such weird names for the houses in Hog Warts. Seriously.

Anyways i texted Peaches cause i know she is a HUGE fan, (i may be over stressing the HUGE part but she totally is) and she texted right back with the colours of all the house, cause she is just that great. So she is amazing and gets the prize for knowing off the top of her head what all the colours of the house teams were. I bet she could do Potter trivia and totally win. She is just that good.

Harry Potter < Supernatural

(what can i say its true)

~carnessie

Tell me what you think about…

You know when you have to go to the bathroom, but you are all cozy in bed, maybe like watching something, or listening to music and you really have to pee? Now maybe this is just me, but sometimes its like an internal debate whether its worth it to get out of bed, pause my show and go to the bathroom, cause its like the cold air hits you as you get out of the blankets…Althought maybe im just crazy.

And then i also think that since im up i have to do all the things i have to do before i can jump back into bed. My logic is since im up already i should brush my teeth, charge my phone, organzie my purse so that 30 minutes later, even though i got up just to pee, ive wasted a large amount of time.

So i was wondering if other people have this “problem” where mostly its cause its warm in your blankets and cold outside so you have to mentally weigh all the options before getting out of bed.

Weird for somepeople i know.

~carnessie

NEWS101

OK,

so my news is that i had a list of things “to do” before the end of this year, and im getting them done! woot woot, i realize it may not be as exciting to you as it is to me, but i am honestly really excited that im doing some stuff that i want to do, instead of looking back on the year and being “gah what a waste of a year!”

Italy! See i can do interesting things too...LOL

i have an individual list of things to do, but my friend and i came up with a list of things we should do together and its hilarious!

The list is called “A sad and depression list of achievable things to do” haha Cause it kinda is, these are no big dreams let me warn you in advance…

1. Read Pride and Prejudice and Zombies/Alice in Wonderland the original by summer time (make note that summer is super broad time frame could be anywhere from may-august)
2. Watch a musical TOGETHER by march (i have already seen two since we wrote this list, but since it wasnt TOGETHER it technically doesnt count towards the “list”)
3. Find a new hobby/collection (this is great idea i recommend to everyone, you find something you all generally like, or have interest in and you make it a group hobby, our last big one was buttons!)
4. Buy things for the new hobby/collection (this ensures we spend a lot of money, but also, it helps us reach 10+ things on the “list” LOL)
5. Go clubbing TOGETHER (once again, we have issues about doing things as a group, we hang out pretty often, but we dont tend to do things as a group, except kareoke we did that!)
6. Spend one outing without talking about  A. Twilight   B. School Problems   C. Supernatural/Gay Boys (haha this is actually way harder than you would think! The C. kinda pertains to me only but whatever i love my J2 :p we dont even love twilight – i like the books – but we seem to talk about it every outing! so this is a huge challange for us)
7. Buy matching accessories for two of us, but not for the third and flaunt it (one of our members really wants us to have matching things, and its like this big joke, so one day we will buy matching things and laugh about it)
8. Go shopping at a different place (what can i say we are creatures of habit, we tend to go to the same mall over and over again…)
9. Go to some sort of class (and by this we mean a fun class, salsa dancing, pottery, cartoon drawing…something random and fun)
10. Get to know each other much better (we have been friends for almost 10 years and we played a game to see how much we really knew about each other, without stating the obvious things, and we found out we really dont know each other very well, and all suck at being friends)

And there you have the 10 things, that we want to accomplish as a group before i guess this year ends, or maybe the summer time (the very vague summer timeline). It may not be as exciting as some of your own to do lists, but i warned you in advance, plus this is super fun for us, and if you read the title it has to fall under “achievable” so there it is.

~carnessie

One of them now…

OK, so i have a couple of blogs that i regulary frequent, and i check for updates during the week (this may or may not mean i check for updates everyday, but i admit to nothing!) and im always wondering why they are not posting more awesomeness on a regular basis. So when i started this blog, im like i will post everyday! i will be awesome….

I seem to think life will work out like a fairy tale does...

Turns out the reason you cant post everyday is cause life gets in the way…who would have thought?!

So i went back and looked at all my posts and realized that the first month (like 3 months ago LOL) i posted like a mad women, but then slowly i posted less and less, and i cant even say i was super busy or anything, i just got lazy!

Although having a blog does make me look at the world a little differently, like “hummm how could i write about this moment and make it sound interesting?” LOL

Chalk drawings are super exciting!

Oh and i have some amazing photos to post, but i lost my charger and therefore i suck, and cannot charge my camera battery and i cannot upload pics and i cant take more pictures, which is really getting me down…and i just dont know where it could be…honestly im much better at not losing things than this…i dont know whats going on.

SO here is my ode to why i dont post things everyday like i wanted to… YAY life!

PS i may or may not suppose to be in class right now.. (dont tell anyone!)

~carnessie

384

So this is my new obsession, finding lists of movies and books that are the top books, or movies of all time, and then i see how many i have seen from this list. Its a lot of fun, i also hope to actually watch all these movies..one day. LOL

Movies I haven’t seen.  (in Red)
Movies i have seen (in Green)

1.    The Shawshank Redemption (1994)
2.    The Godfather (1972)
3.    The Godfather: Part II (1974)
4.    Il buono, il brutto, il cattivo. (1966)
5.    Pulp Fiction (1994)
6.    Schindler’s List (1993)
7.    12 Angry Men (1957)
8.    One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest (1975)
9.    The Dark Knight (2008)
10    Star Wars: Episode V – The Empire Strikes Back (1980)
11.   Casablanca (1942)
12.   Star Wars (1977)
13.   The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King (2003)
14.   Shichinin no samurai (1954)
15.   Goodfellas (1990)
16.   Rear Window (1954)
17.   Cidade de Deus (2002)
18.   Raiders of the Lost Ark (1981)
19.   Fight Club (1999)
20.  The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (2001)
21.   C’era una volta il West (1968)
22.  The Usual Suspects (1995)
23.  Psycho (1960)
24.  The Silence of the Lambs (1991)
25.  Sunset Blvd. (1950)
26.  The Matrix (1999)
27.  Memento (2000)
28.  Dr. Strangelove or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb (1964)
29.  North by Northwest (1959)
30.  It’s a Wonderful Life (1946)
31.   Se7en (1995)
32.  The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (2002)
33.  Citizen Kane (1941)
34.  Léon (1994)
35.  Apocalypse Now (1979)
36.  American Beauty (1999)
37.  Taxi Driver (1976)
38.  American History X (1998)
39.  Up (2009)
40.  Forrest Gump (1994)
41.   Vertigo (1958)
42.  Lawrence of Arabia (1962)
43.  Inglourious Basterds (2009)
44.  WALL·E (2008)
45.  Paths of Glory (1957)
46.  Double Indemnity (1944)
47.  Le fabuleux destin d’Amélie Poulain (2001)
48.  M (1931)
49.  Alien (1979)
50.  To Kill a Mockingbird (1962)
51.   Terminator 2: Judgment Day (1991)
52.  The Treasure of the Sierra Madre (1948)
53.  A Clockwork Orange (1971)
54.  Saving Private Ryan (1998)
55.  The Shining (1980)
56.  The Third Man (1949)
57.  The Departed (2006)
58.  Das Leben der Anderen (2006)
59.  The Pianist (2002)
60.  Chinatown (1974)
61.   City Lights (1931)
62.   Sen to Chihiro no kamikakushi (2001)
63.   Aliens (1986)
64.   Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004)
65.   L.A. Confidential (1997)
66.   Das Boot (1981)
67.   Requiem for a Dream (2000)
68.   The Bridge on the River Kwai (1957)
69.   Reservoir Dogs (1992)
70.   Monty Python and the Holy Grail (1975)
71.   District 9 (2009)
72.   El laberinto del fauno (2006)
73.   All About Eve (1950)
74.   Raging Bull (1980)
75.   The Maltese Falcon (1941)
76.   Slumdog Millionaire (2008)
77.   Rashômon (1950)
78.   Singin’ in the Rain (1952)
79.   Modern Times (1936)
80.   Some Like It Hot (1959)
81.   Rebecca (1940)
82.   The Prestige (2006)
83.   Der Untergang (2004)
84.   Gran Torino (2008)
85.   The Apartment (1960)
86.   Nuovo cinema Paradiso (1988)
87.   Metropolis (1927)
88.   Amadeus (1984)
89.   The Elephant Man (1980)
90.   The Great Dictator (1940)
91.   2001: A Space Odyssey (1968)
92.   La vita è bella (1997)
93.   Once Upon a Time in America (1984)
94.   Back to the Future (1985)
95.   Ladri di biciclette (1948)
96.   Full Metal Jacket (1987)
97.   Mr. Smith Goes to Washington (1939)
98.   The Sting (1973)
99.   The Great Escape (1963)
100.  Braveheart (1995)
101.  Touch of Evil (1958)
102.  Sin City (2005)
103.  On the Waterfront (1954)
104.  Det sjunde inseglet (1957)
105.  The Green Mile (1999)
106.  Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade (1989)
107.  Batman Begins (2005)
108.  Jaws (1975)
109.  Hotel Rwanda (2004)
110.  Unforgiven (1992)
111.   Strangers on a Train (1951)
112.  Star Wars: Episode VI – Return of the Jedi (1983)
113.  Blade Runner (1982)
114.  Gladiator (2000)
115.  No Country for Old Men (2007)
116.  Notorious (1946)
117.  Die Hard (1988)
118.  Oldboy (2003)
119.  The Manchurian Candidate (1962)
120. High Noon (1952)
121.  Per qualche dollaro in più (1965)
122.  The Wrestler (2008)
123.  Cool Hand Luke (1967)
124.  The General (1926)
125.  The Big Sleep (1946)
126.  Fargo (1996)
127.  Witness for the Prosecution (1957)
128.  The Wizard of Oz (1939)
129.  Star Trek (2009)
130.  Mononoke-hime (1997)
131.  Smultronstället (1957)
132.  It Happened One Night (1934)
133.  Heat (1995)
134.  Donnie Darko (2001)
135.  Kind Hearts and Coronets (1949)
136.  There Will Be Blood (2007)
137.  Annie Hall (1977)
138.  Yojimbo (1961)
139.  Les diaboliques (1955)
140.  Ran (1985)
141.  The Deer Hunter (1978)
142.  Ben-Hur (1959)
143.  The Sixth Sense (1999)
144.  Judgment at Nuremberg (1961)
145.  Saban Oglu Saban (1977)
146.  Kill Bill: Vol. 1 (2003)
147.  Platoon (1986)
148.  Into the Wild (2007)
149.  Le notti di Cabiria (1957)
150.  Le salaire de la peur (1953)
151.  The Grapes of Wrath (1940)
152.  Million Dollar Baby (2004)
153.  Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid (1969)
154.  The Bourne Ultimatum (2007)
155.  8½ (1963)
156.  Life of Brian (1979)
157.  Snatch. (2000)
158.  The Gold Rush (1925)
159.  The Big Lebowski (1998)
160.  The Night of the Hunter (1955)
161.  The Graduate (1967)
162.  Stand by Me (1986)
163.  Finding Nemo (2003)
164.  Sunrise: A Song of Two Humans (1927)
165.  Gandhi (1982)
166.  The Lion King (1994)
167.  Gone with the Wind (1939)
168.  The Killing (1956)
169.  (500) Days of Summer (2009)
170.  Brief Encounter (1945)
171.   Dog Day Afternoon (1975)
172.  Ratatouille (2007)
173.  Amores perros (2000)
174.  Trainspotting (1996)
175.  Scarface (1983)
176.  The Thing (1982)
177.   The Kid (1921)
178.   Groundhog Day (1993)
179.   The Terminator (1984)
180.   The Best Years of Our Lives (1946)
181.   Sleuth (1972)
182.   Toy Story (1995)
183.   Harvey (1950)
184.   The Hustler (1961)
185.   The Wild Bunch (1969)
186.   V for Vendetta (2005)
187.   Shadow of a Doubt (1943)
188.   Umberto D. (1952)
189.   The Princess Bride (1987)
190.   Twelve Monkeys (1995)
191.    Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels (1998)
192.    The Incredibles (2004)
193.    Stalag 17 (1953)
194.    Casino (1995)
195.    Hotaru no haka (1988)
196.    Children of Men (2006)
197.    The Lady Vanishes (1938)
198.    Dial M for Murder (1954)
199.    Duck Soup (1933)
200.    Anatomy of a Murder (1959)
201.    The African Queen (1951)
202.    In Bruges (2008)
203.    La battaglia di Algeri (1966)
204.    A Streetcar Named Desire (1951)
205.    La strada (1954)
206.    Who’s Afraid of Virginia Woolf? (1966)
207.    King Kong (1933)
208.    Safety Last! (1923)
209.    The Adventures of Robin Hood (1938)
210.    The Ox-Bow Incident (1943)
211.    The Exorcist (1973)
212.    The Lost Weekend (1945)
213.    His Girl Friday (1940)
214.    Rope (1948)
215.    Letters from Iwo Jima (2006)
216.    The Curious Case of Benjamin Button (2008)
217.    Ed Wood (1994)
218.    The Conversation (1974)
219.    Rosemary’s Baby (1968)
220.    Bonnie and Clyde (1967)
221.    Le scaphandre et le papillon (2007)
222.    Låt den rätte komma in (2008)
223.    Manhattan (1979)
224.    Sweet Smell of Success (1957)
225.    Network (1976)
226.    All Quiet on the Western Front (1930)
227.    The Philadelphia Story (1940)
228.    Frankenstein (1931)
229.    Great Expectations (1946)
230.    Changeling (2008)
231.    Laura (1944)
232.    Arsenic and Old Lace (1944)
233.    Patton (1970)
234.    Good Will Hunting (1997)
235.    Big Fish (2003)
236.    Crash (2004)
237.    Kill Bill: Vol. 2 (2004)
238.    The Hangover (2009)
239.    Rocky (1976)
240.    Mystic River (2003)
241.    Magnolia (1999)
242.    Bringing Up Baby (1938)
243.    The Day the Earth Stood Still (1951)
244.    Harold and Maude (1971)
245.    Roman Holiday (1953)
246.    My Man Godfrey (1936)
247.    Wo hu cang long (2000)
248.    The Red Shoes (1948)
249.    Glory (1989)
250.    Planet of the Apes (1968)

I dont know what you can tell from the movies i watched…but there it is. I wish you could count the movies by how many times you watched them, that may have helped my score LOL. Guess i havent watched as many movies as i thought i did, considering Peaches and i watch all kinds of movies, you would think that i had seen more movies than this, but a lot of these movies were before my time, and i guess i never got around to watching some of the classics. I will fix this when i have some time, i plan on making sure i am well rounded in movie watching. LOL

Seems like i have seen a lot of the animated ones on this list…haha But its pretty much a given that i avoid scary movies, Peaches and i watched Friday the 13th, the remake just recently, and i was shitting myself…and peaches proceeded to laugh at me.

If you have time, try doing your own version and see how many you have watched, and let me know in the comments!

~carnessie

Fall of Doom

I think im having like withdrawl from life.

I just turned like old, and now i realize my life really isnt going anywhere.

Add onto that the fact that supernatural is not playing for like the next month, and it was the only show that i really looked forward to like ever.

Also (cause apparently im a stickler for pain and misery) owing to the fact that this year may possible be the last year supernatural runs makes me depressed and sad.

But dont be fooled, i mean not everything in my life revolves around supernatural, oh no, in fact there are many many more things i get to be depressed about. Such as the fact that christmas is coming and im too poor to really afford to buy the pretty things that are advertised (i totally blame the media for putting images of sugar plums in my head)

As well, school is coming to an end for a while, and then in Jan. it starts up again, but i realize that even though its really exciting for now, i realized that that i have like 3 more years (easy) for me to be in school, and well thats not such a happy though. You think after high school i would have decided not to go back to school, cause id be sick of it, but apparently once again i guess im a sucker for pain and misery.

Bring it my way! So thats why i feel like a debbie downer right now, maybe it will get better in time, and maybe it wont. I just feel like im stuck, and for sure some J2 would help brighten my day, but i have too many midterms to focus on (or procrastinate for) to not feel guilty if i want to read J2, or watch some old episodes of supernatural.

So im stuck, in a rut, like a mut whoses been cut…and i realize this is going no where so i decided to stop.

Wish i had something more insightful and pleasent to say. Maybe i will sleep on it, and magically something amazingly witty will come to me, or not. But a girls gotta dream right? RIGHT?!

Anyways, maybe all i need is like chocolate, or a cuddle buddy sometimes that makes it all better, or maybe its just Peaches withdrawl, cause i know its going to be forever till i see her again.

Although we saw New Moon together, and it was awesome! BECAUSE IT FOLLOWED THE BOOK! AND IF YOU READ THE BOOK AND THEN WATCH THE MOVIE YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT, BUT IF YOUR ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO DONT READ THE BOOK AND THEN CRITIZE THE MOVIE, YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT! NEW MOON WAS LIKE A BILLION TIMES BETTER THAN TWILIGHT!

so theres that as well, and look at that the rant made me feel better, who would have thought?! maybe now i will actually sit down and do my essay and then when im done that, i will do the other essay LOL cause my life is just that  much fun…

Oh and i guess its probably important to say that i was team edward, but after watching new moon i have decided that i am team jacob and for those who dont care well i dont care that you dont care, so there.  Jacob totally owned this movie, so glad they kept him, him being super buff and hot notwithstanding.

I want a unicorn to carry me to like a moonbeam or something (cause i believe somewhere i heard moonbeams are happy places, where people are like super happy and full of joy and joyness)…where can i find a unicorn at this time of the year?

~carnessie

 

You’re Still The One

Looks like we made it

Look how far we’ve come my baby

We mighta took the long way

 
We knew we’d get there someday

Bridge:
They said, “I bet they’ll never make it”

But just look at us holding on

We’re still together still going strong

Chorus:
(You’re still the one)
You’re still the one I run to

The one that I belong to

You’re the one I want for life

(You’re still the one)
You’re still the one that I love

The only one I dream of

You’re still the one I kiss good night

Ain’t nothin’ better

We beat the odds together

I’m glad we didn’t listen

Look at what we would be missin’ 

I’m so glad we made it

Look how far we’ve come my baby

If only i spent this much time on my essays…

~carnessie

Food for thought

Ok, so these are the things i do when im working on essays or trying to get my ideas flowing:

Smart Food popcorn in the hopes that it makes me smart by eating it…

YUM

Tea – lots and lots of tea…we dont have a coffee maker here, and i dont always want to run to starbucks for coffee every hour…so i make due with tea in large amounts…LOL

(i just realized i … so much… haha why?)

music – playing all the time, usually the radio cause i like the varitety of it…although sometimes i end up distracted cause i sing along instead of work…but whatever

Notebooks – i have the random ideas notebook, to jot random ideas down, i have the one im activly writing my essay on and as well i have one that just has blank paper to draw on when i feel stuck…

Many TO DO lists – i wouldnt survive without these, i have like 4 and all of them are around me all the time, i take joy in checking off things when i complete them although i usually put really east things on them so that i get to check them off, like: eat, go downstairs for pen, find pants LOL yea cause it helps me write but it also works as a procrastination tool, and i need lots of those.

THIS EXACTLY

Clean my room – helps me relax when im super tense and unfocused, sometimes a clean room helps to waken me up…

Text people to see what they are doing, and then talk to them a while

Facebook check

Agenda – i like to check it regularly and stare at it, to see what i have coming up and i count the days i have left to do things, and sometimes it helps to get my ass moving…sometimes…

watch some old movies or tv, in order to get the brain flowing…

read J2 stories

Genius right here!

Post Random things on blog – as i am doing right now…LOL

So what do you do??

~carnessie

Voices – Round 1

So hers a play by play of whats going on in my head right now:

Starring

THE IRRATIONAL VOICE

and

The rational voice of reason

Lets see who wins this round…

I have to do my essay

NAH DONT DO IT NOW, DO IT LATER

no i really should get to it, after this one i have another one due one day later, and a miderm

BUT INSTEAD YOU COULD READ J2…

yea but if i read one that will lead to me being all shmoopy and need to read another one and another

YOU COULD STOP AFTER ONE STORY

but i really have to get this essay done, its important

J2 IS WAY MORE IMPORTANT THAN AN ESSAY

but i need to graduate, no essay no piece of paper that says im smart

YOU COULD MAKE A FAKE DEGREE ON THE INTERNET

no i really should do my essay

J2…LOOK ITS SO FUNNY, AND GOOD…LOOK WHAT YOUR MISSING

maybe i could read a little…like the beginning of one or something…

YEA JUST READ THE BEGINNING

but then i may be tempted to read it all…

OH NO IM SURE YOU COULD STOP IF YOU WANTED

hummmm

PLUS I MEAN YOU HAVE PLENTY OF TIME TO WRITE THE PAPER LATER ON…

when…

DOESNT MATTER WHEN, TIME IS MEANINGLESS

but the paper…

J2

…

J2 J2 J2 J2 THEN FACEBOOK, THEN YOUTUBE, THEN MORE J2 TO BREAK IT UP

but then it will be time for work, and then it will be late and then i will be sleepy

WELL THEN I GUESS ITS BETTER TO WORK ON ESSAY TOMORROW WHEN YOUR FRESH

yea your prob. right….i could read j2 now and work on essay tomorrow morning

OR SLEEP IN TOMORROW MORNING…AND THEN READ MORE J2

yea! wait…what?

NOTHING…NOTHING AT ALL

ok well im going to do it…read one story….just one…

PSSHHHH ONCE YOU READ ONE THERE’S NO STOPPING…ITS A DISEASE

oh….shit too late

And that my friends is my inner monologue as i try to contemplate what to do with my time, looks like IRRATIONAL VOICE won this round…honestly im not surprised. Im pretty sure looking at laundry drying is more fun than writing an essay…plus i know when i finish this one i will immediatly have to write another one…and then study for a test. And i really dont want to do that i want to procrastinate and J2 is my drug of choice. Cause its J2…obviously…

Oh well, so much for being productive and getting work done, come back tomorrow for round 2 and see if i actually do any real work…(possibilities slim…)

Im so fucked…

~carnessie